To Be Myself

I doubt myself a lot.

It's the result of being raised on earth.

You learn to hate yourself.

You learn to mask the hurt.

You don't deserve this, you don't deserve that.

My self-esteem fell to the floor.

Now I'm trying with all that I have

To convince myself I'm worth fighting for.

I wasn’t born like this.

I am the product of the system.

I wanted to be free,

The system wanted to control me.

You cannot do this; you cannot do that.

And I believed the lie.

Now I'm trying with all that I have

To convince myself that I can fly.

I just wanted to be myself,

They told me that wasn’t good enough:

"Imitate somebody else.

Behave like a robot."

You have to do this; you have to do that.

And I became somebody else.

Now I’m trying with all that I have

To convince myself to be myself.

© 2019 Rebecca Barboza

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